listening to: Solitude ~Shijitsu no Sayonara~ - Kinki Kids The last message, I love you.
I'm alone at home now.
Was thinking of going to Liang Court but nobody seems to be free. Then I thought about going on my own since I already know the way. But that feels so lonely. And I am lazy. =X Anyway, what can I buy there with $50?!
The road home alone always makes me think too much. It's been months -- ample time for everyone to mingle around and form into pairs. I am on pretty good terms with everyone, but if you ask me who in class I'm extremely close to, I don't know what to answer. It's the question of pairs, not groups. Even within the group I usually stick to; it is usually they two if we were forced into pairs. And just watching everyone know they have someone to hang on to in class makes me feel lonely.
And definitely going to Liang Court alone today would only intensify those feelings.
Gee. Why do I talk only about ME, ME, and just more ME? Do I actually sound very self-centered?
I'm supposed to attend a spook talk with Fidelia tomorrow, but if I were to tell the truth, all of a sudden I don't want to go. But I still am going. It's not about the money -- it's about the responsibility that I've promised her. I've been really tired recently, I couldn't believe that while I was typing last night, my eyes were closing. It was a very horrible feeling to struggle to keep awake. And on several nights/mornings, I wonder if I had brushed my teeth.
Tell me, if I'm already succumbing to the horrible treatment of JC Year One life, how am I surviving Year Two?
It's times like these when I need someone to embrace me, but there's no one there.
Ehhh I bring my camera to school every day now. I take random silly pictures of anything around me. And today was no exception.
anyway am going to do something now. :P shall post the pictures later~
added at: 3:02pm *imitates nii-chan aka Kusano* cho ureshii yo~ Yes yes I was pretty gloomy just now that I had to face a dull hectic weekend ahead, but now I'm pretty alright! And you know why? Because my second attempt at onigiri succeeded!!!!!!!!!! I know, I know, I can't even do such a simple thing as making onigiri. ^^ So you know my future partner has to know how to cook... Kekeke but then... I've just found a way to cheer myself up. If I ever feel gloomy and lonely again, the kitchen is a nice outlet for making simple little dishes. Wahhh~ That sense of accomplishment that I have not experienced ever since Home Econs ended in Secondary 2!
Wanna try toast + butter + that packet of toppings I used for my onigiri next time heehee. Wonder what I can experiment with mayonnaise??