I am so quiet and shy that I am so afraid that people think I'm autistic and arrogant. I am not. I don't DAO people. But when people come visiting, I get so stressed because I feel so shy, so I don't even go outside to greet them. I sit at the computer reading my Nobuta book, pretending to be studying. So shall I keep up my studious, nerdy image to those people?
I am only loud and insane in front of people I know well and about my age.
I feel so guilty to look like I'm ignoring them, and they did give me angbaos!
Please understand my shyness, and see through that arrogant/nerdy/quiet look/image that I have.
And on top of that, I am NOT autistic. Someone ever said this to me before, that I was so quiet and DAO-looking that I seemed to be autistic. When I never did anything to her. Never insulted her. She thought it was an insult. And I don't want to mention her name anymore, in case I am accused. Anyway, I doubt she'd come by here. So it's alright.
And I apologise that I keep on bearing grudges and not dropping them.
I don't like people to misunderstand me, I want them to see past the exterior, but I came to realise that in this world, a lot of people you meet will form different impressions of you, and it doesn't matter, because not everybody has to know the real you. (:
And PS: this is not a depressing post! Self-discovery. :P
*edit: I don't like Yamapi-only fans who curse Kusano. :( Hmm well. It's their own opinion anyway. I'm hearing 'Ao no Jidai' on SC medley, and this song keeps bringing tears to my eyes, no matter who sings it. >_<