Maybe it isn't such a good thing to have so many things you want to do. You have so many things to do that the week before the next, you know your week ahead is fully "booked", and then suddenly... an abrupt yet probably important event comes up, and you have to tell the people around you, "sorry I can't make it." "sorry, I have something on, so we have a change of plans. let's postpone it."
Then when all the mess and confusion settles in, suddenly, "Oh, I didn't tell you I wasn't free that day?!"
THEN when you have to postpone the whole thing, suddenly you feel that originally you so badly wanted that rest, and finally you can't get that rest, you cant even get your time to do homework, because you postponed that promise, and you have to go out the entire of next week ALL OVER AGAIN.
Damn it. If it's like that, I don't want to go anywhere anymore! I want to do so many things, and maybe that isn't a good thing.
I was pretty happy and satisfied that the week was planned for, and my period is over, then my mood got spoilt in the end.
I tell you in advance. NO I AM NOT FREE THIS WEEK ENTIRELY, and I AM NOT FREE at all next Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and so on.
I was supposed to really look forward to tomorrow. But even if soomething was cancelled and the trip can go smoothly, I feel so upset now. Every time something comes to upset me, I can't reverse it. BAH. I don't understand why I feel upset. But I do.