Episode 7 of Nobuta wo Produce hit me so hard, I nearly cried. Except that the fact that okaa-san was nearby so I couldn't cry. I was like Nobuta last time. Now I am like Shuji. I am not the popular kid, but... how come I seem to be trying to be nice, not voice out, just so that I don't lose anybody, nor do I make any enemies and most importantly,
...so that people don't hate me?
Shuji said, "Tomorrow, everyone will start hating me. The feeling of being hated by someone... is scary."
Why do I never achieve balance...?
Why do I show them my smile? is that smile really what I wanted to show in the beginning? No matter where I am, I feel like I don't really fit in well? Like a genuine, perfect fit?
I hate the feeling of people hating me. I don't really think about this; the feeling just lies inside me somewhere, until Shuji brought it up again.
Who knew watching Nobuta wo Produce could make me want to cry, when it's supposed to be a sort of comical drama? But somehow beneath the hilarity everybody seems to be able to find something in it. It relates more closely to our age. Like how we see the adult world. (: