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by your side.


-Scanned from NANA, volume 7.

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life is a routine;


Lol. I and Esther found this from the postcard stand at Liang Court. (:

Eyecandy のシーズンが終わった!! It was fantastic distraction on a Sunday anyway teehee.  あれ?! ...I just found out how to input in romaji... But in a way I'm pretty much used to typing using kana input already.


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nonsensical summer.


Like fools chase after
one another in summer
Under that polka-dotted umbrella.

-photos by sylvia.

To walk past the restricted artistic area after school every day has become somewhat a special part of my daily walk home from school. Things might never be the same again, but it is only then that I see you, always sure to sit on the stool with your back against us, intently finishing the art piece you were blackmailed to finish. Which is a very pretty artwork, by the way. So I slow down my pace and watch you a little longer, being sure you would never turn around and see me.

It is only then that I can genuinely look at you and see that you're still alive, and smile like I want to without any restraints. (:

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Apparently I couldn't keep my blog on hiatus for long , because something happy happened today, even though I'm still feeling quite horrible. There are many wonderful things eyes can do. But at the same time, eyes can do such horrible things to you.

I saw the cutest Japanese guy I ever saw in Singapore today at Meidi-ya when he asked me and Vanessa to try the food at the Osaka Food Fair. The pretty boy with the gangster hair. Who has such big lovely eyes that totally made my weekend. (:

Though it didn't mean I solved everything that was on my mind. But Liang Court has always been my little place of escape. Yea anyway that guy was super キレイ、カッコイイと可愛い!

I learnt that it doesn't matter whether you meant to hurt a person or not, but only the fact that you hurt that person matters. In any case I didn't mean any harm, but I don't ask for forgiveness either. It was one of the worst things I ever did to a friend, perhaps even the worst itself. I did unto others what others did unto me six years ago without knowing. ):

Things will never be the same anymore. I wonder if it was necessary to have kept a distance from others before you cycled to the top of the hill and realise it was so much steeper on the other side. So down you go and hurt the person who was merely a little in front of you on that hill. The worst thing was that I did not even know how to cycle.

you walk past me
i can feel your pain
time changes everything
one truth always stays the same
you're still you
i look up to
everything you are
in my eyes you do no wrong
and I believe in you
although you never asked me to
i will remember you
and what life put you through

-josh groban.

it's time to let go.

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許さない !

TAKUMI 去死吧 !!

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don't want to.

I hate you.
to have said what you said.
to have felt what you felt.
to know me.
but not encourage me.
but made me feel like...

...I want to kill myself.

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le papillon (the butterfly)


The cover of my new History notebook. (: Reminds me of my first French movie, Le Papillon, which is a really beautiful film which did not need any special effects to make it a memorable movie. :D

From Le Papillon,

"When love demands proof, it means there's no trust. And where there's no trust, there's no love." -Julien

Elsa: "Why are there rich and poor?"
Julien: "Because 'liberty, equality, fraternity' sounds nice but it doesn't work too well."

"When I was little, even littler than now, I had a dream. It was with a canary, you know, those little yellow birds. I took it out of its cage, brought it to my window, and opened my hand. And you know what? It didn't fly away. It stayed with me. I was glad. You know why? If it preferred to stay with me, it must be because it loved me." - Elsa

Elsa (looking at the scenery): "It's beautiful. Just like a calendar."
Julien: "Calendar? It's better than a calendar."

"The other day, the teacher talked about Napoleon. She said he ran down the Austrians at Marengo. Maxime raised his hand. Know what he asked? What kind ofcar he drove." -Elsa

"A butterfly is a love note folded in two."

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all the white horses have gone ahead.


Snow can wait, I forgot my mittens
Wipe my nose, get my new boots on
I get a little warm in my heart when I think of winter
I put my hand in my fathers glove

I run off where the drifts get deeper
Sleeping beauty trips me with a frown
I hear a voice you must learn to stand up for yourself
Cause I cant always be around

He says when you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gonna change so fast
All the white horses are still in bed
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change my dear

Boys get discovered as winter melts
Flowers competing for the sun
Years go by and Im here still waiting
Withering where some snowman was

Mirror mirror wheres the crystal palace
But I only can see myself
Skating around the truth who I am
But I know, dad, the ice is getting thin

When you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gonna change so fast
All the white horses are still in bed
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change my dear

Hair is grey and the fires are burning
So many dreams on the shelf
You say I wanted you to be proud
I always wanted that myself

When you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
Cause things are gona change so fast
All the white horses have gone ahead

I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change my dear

Never change

All the white horses

-Winter, by Tori Amos.
(it's my favourite Tori Amos song.
now you know where I got my email address from. xD)

-photo by Sylvia.

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Singapore Fireworks Festival - Team France


Above video captured by me. I apologise for the shaky video because I wasn't watching the screen but the sky itself instead. Cut out some parts where there was music but no fireworks, to size it down to less than 10minutes for YouTube posting. (If you're wondering why the video sometimes get quiet, it's because I kept switching hands to hold the camera and while watching the sky I didn't realise I covered the audio-input area.) Oh, and plus towards the end I cut the video off because I wanted to take a photo of the finale. So here's a video of the end I found online:

*28secs video by harperlp.

The display was magnificent. (: Yesterday's was the best ! It was entitled "Celebration of Life", choreographed by France's fireworks team. Though perhaps every team actually used the same types of fireworks, they managed to beautifully present very colourful and meaningful themes.

For "Celebration of Life", it reminded me of growth in life, from tiny, shimmering, green buds/seeds of fireworks that resembled the birth of life on earth, very quietly, gently and gracefully, to suddenly bursting out with energy and happiness. Through many difficulties and unhappiness beautifully represented by red and green and gold fireworks, to emotions of sadness from golden fireworks slowly falling to the dark pits of the Marina Bay, rainbow-coloured fireworks shoot out after that, and drives away the unhappiness. The finale, a massive shower of gold reminds us of how rich our lives are, no matter what unhappiness there might be. (And actually, I really felt like we were showered by golden sparks literally. They were AWESOME. It's something watching a video of fireworks cannot express.)

I never saw fireworks as anything more than pretty lights going "pop-pop-pop" before. It was a really happy albeit tiring trip. :)

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「あの香りとともに 花火がぱっと開く 」


Singapore Fireworks Festival:
11th August, Team: New Caledonia.

Sorry, cut the video into parts because i shuffled between photo-taking and videoing. The photos were, unfortunately, horrendous. The full-length display is available on youtube, and if I get to transfer the thing from my dad's handycam, I'll upload the whole thing. :) Going to watch France's display today !



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the alone time (again).

Am sick today, so shall cut down on the ambiguous lines. Random photos I took when I was alone.

This was somewhat hidden behind the kitchen window. Stretched out my camera and found this. (:

Totally unedited photo. My first unedited photo x) On the same day, I watched the windchime at the kitchen after my mum went to work.

On the way home alone from the study time with Faith. Very shaky because whenever I use the "Program" function to adjust the lighting, I can't hold my camera steady for 3 seconds. Shadows on the ground. (:

The tealight lamp I got from Ikea. I changed its position to the LOTR "table" between the computer room and the master bedroom. It's really beautiful during the 5.30pm - 7.30pm time of the day because it's the point where it is not yet entirely dark but not bright either.

So this is the top of the LOTR "table" now. (:

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from where i am you might not see stars.


Planetarium - Otsuka Ai (subbed)
Insert song for 花より男子 (Hana Yori Dango), or, better know in Taiwan as Meteor Garden. I miss watching dramas.

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the stars fade and you'll still have the flowers.


I was out with dear Faith yesterday, half-studying, half catching up with each other.
Life spans
strawberry sundaes
cheese sticks
and imagining quanmin in our heads xD

(it's not a photo. it's a scan of my new file. )

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my summer alone.


You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go
And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played on lips 'till it's madness in my head
Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur
Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door
You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far
Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true
Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do
More than anything I want to see you go
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world

-'You Could Be Happy' by Snow Patrol.

-photo by sylvia.

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